Bad return

After a long time without writing anything here in my blog, I am back.
I have a test tomorrow, but I can't study ... I know that I will get a low score in history and literature - who cares?

I did bad in the last exam; I couldn't help my team in the soccer match; I didn't study as much as I wanted this last days; I haven't being anything more than an useless idiot.
I am feeling tired, lazy, bored and stressed, and no one will notice it. Even if I am crying inside, my face will show a smile; no one will ever see my weakness.

It is almost midnight ... My eyes are closing and my mind is starting to play tricks on me. Don't wanna sleep. Why tomorrow must come? Why today can't last for one more day?

No one will ever help me, no one can. Tomorrow will be just one more sad and boring day.


Looking at the past to see where I went wrong, I feel powerless. Even if I find- I know that I wont- I can't change anything.  Waiting for the dark and empty world of the dreamless night, I give up trying to do something useful; I give up .